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Mar. 15th, 2009


Macho Men or Wussies From Outer Space?

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May. 27th, 2008


Of llamas, emus, and things that go *squitch*

Okay, lets talk about fairness. I work my ass off at work, and anyone who thinks doing housekeeping at a motel isn't strenuous, you can just leave right now. It is. We only get a half an hour a room. Making two beds in each takes up ten minutes in itself, then we have to clean all surfaces - tv screen, desk top, credenza, sink, mirror, window, tub (which takes longer when you have to pick the hairs out of it first), toilet, bathroom floor. Then we have to set up the displays and make sure the room has everything its supposed to have (3 towels, 4 washrags, one bathmat, three handtowels, 1 large bar of soap, 1 small bar of soap, 1 bottle of lotion, 1 bottle of shampoo, 4 cups by ice bucket, 2 cups by coffe pot, 1 pack regular coffe, 1 pack decaf, two bags of tea different flavors, 2 condiment packs, 1 motel directory, 2 phonebooks, 1 bible, 2 comment cards, 1 foresafety card, 1 tv guide directory, 1 HBO directory, 1 remote for tv, 2 trashcans with trash bags, you get the picture). Then we have to vacuum them. It may not seem like it should take that long to do all this, but it does. We don't just wipe down the surfaces, we actually SCRUB them to make sure they're CLEAN which takes LONGER when some seriously filthy Joe Schmoe used the tub or shower. I take pride in my work and I want it to show in the work I do. Well, after a usual day at work, when I get home, I like to play some WoW to unwind. Do I usually get to? Sometimes. Most of the time, Daniel refuses to get off the computer for even an hour for me. Like last night. Yesterday, my day off, I got called into work. I get home, Dan's just waking up (at about 4 in the afternoon). He gets on the computer and starts playing. He played WoW for about four hours, then switched to GTA4 (which is a rental - a very LATE rental -_-) for two hours, then switched back to WoW until just after midnight when he started watching tv. Does he offer me some time of my own on the computer? No, he doesn't. He pitches a fit when I logged onto WoW to check one of my toon's mail (I was on, had the mail checked, and off before he was half done with his cigarette). I got up between 9 and 10 this morning. Dan kinda woke up while I was searching for my jeans and I told him to go back to sleep. He asked me why, so I told him 'because I want to play for a while'. He smiles and makes like hes going back to bed. I go to the kitchen and start prepping my breakfast (Cap'N Crunch and tea ^_~) and here he comes out of the bedroom and, not even bothering putting his contacts in, gets on the computer. I did not know this was a maintenance day for WoW, so, needless to say, I was NOT happy. Instead of explaining to me that it was a maintenance day and that I'd have to wait until 1 this afternoon to play, he gets on my case saying I couldn't play today at all anyways and to stop acting like a child or something like that. Well. I'm sorry, but after coming home, dat after day, to nothing for me to do because he's been on the computer for hours already and wants to stay on until the cows come home with little to no regard for me and the fact that I actually do physical labor at work (unlike him, who sits behind the desk all day watching tv shows on hulu.com and doing next to nothing). He won't even give me a fucking hour. Not one hour. And if he decides to take a nap in the afternoon, he tells me 'play while you have the chance'. It's bullshit. He's a selfish, self-centered, self-serving bastard. It's all about him and what he wants. He may or may not know how to compromise or share, I don't know since I've never seen him do anything but horde everything for himself, but this is unacceptable. It isn't fair. I'm more than willing to take turns, why isn't he? He's a fucking child. That's probably all he'll ever be. A fucking worthless, selfish, bratty, spoiled child. He needs to grow the fuck up and get over himself and I mean FAST. I told him I;d give him three years. It's almost been one year. This is gonna be a looooonnnnngggg 2 years and four months. -_-


Mar. 23rd, 2008


I'm depressed...

I want to write. I want to put into words on paper all of the worlds and characters I've created, but which are all stuck in my mind; trapped behind a wall of incompetence. But, how do I begin them? How shall I continue the ones I've begun? Where should they end? Why do words suddenly fail me when I finally take pen in hand? Yeah, I get a good line here, a good paragraph there, but it isn't enough. Maybe I'm just not clever or smart enough to be an author. Maybe I'm just gifted with the ability to see all this in my head, yet cursed with the inability to portray it to others. I wish I could finish one - even just one. It probably wouldn't get published, though, but if it did... Gheddon. I've finally got a storyline just for her and the poor thing will never live it. It probably would have been best if I'd never created at all. It isn't as if anyone else is interested in any of it. It's times like this that I absolutely detest and regret being creative. Dan's probably right - nothing would ever come of it. Nothing -could- ever come of it. I guess I should resign myself to a life of mundane colorlessness. A life of doing only what -has- to be dome and never indulging in anything that I enjoy. The Harry Chapin song 'Mr. Tanner' sums it up nicely.

"But music was his life. It was not his livelihood - and it made him feel so happy and it made him feel so good. And he sang from his heart and he sang from his soul. He did not know how well he sang; it just made him whole."

That's how I feel about writing, creating vast worlds, diverse people, awesome things...
...lord, this hurts...

Mar. 22nd, 2008



I'm bored and I'm lonely and it sucks. Dan lost his job, so now I've been working my ass off trying to make ends meet. I've been pulling 9+ hours a day at work, so when I come home to trash overflowing, dishes STILL in the sink, empty Coke bottles everywhere, and Dan sitting on his ass in front of the computer, it makes the Deus not very happy. (especially when Deus wants to play on the computer a bit before going to bed and Dan won't let her.) It does, however, give the Deus a greater appreciation for all the bullshit she put her parental units through while she was still in MI. And she regrets it. I'M SORRY, MA AND PAPA!!!! I WAS HORRIBLE!!! PLEASE FORGIVE ME~!!!!

Okay, now that I've got that out of the way, I love my Daniel very, very much - which is the only reason he's still alive at the moment. He makes me happy more often than he pisses me off, which is a big point in his favor, ne, Keifie, Ash-chan?

I wanna come home and see you all, but I can't and I hate it!!! I MISS YOU!!!!

Mostly (and don't take this the wrong way, ppl, okay?) I miss my Jessi-cat. Methinks I miss her the mostest 'cuz she's dead and I'll never see her or hold her again. No one else die on me, okay? I don't think I could take the disappointment of never being able to see you or talk to you again. IS THAT CLEAR?!?!? Good. Moving on.

I love Tonberrys.

I have a new favorite anti-PMS medication - it's yummy and minty - 3 Musketeers Mint with Dark Chocolate. I'm not too crazy about the chocolate part, but the mint is yummy.... it kinda reminds me of York Peppermint Patty in the shape of a bar.

Well, I'ma go now and let my loving man play his games. Keep in touch, people! You have my Email addy!

((or Jacq, or Ihadurca, or Megan, if you must))

Mar. 15th, 2008


Sorry! I had to!

- August 4 -
You are very independent and fearless. You have a lot of pride in yourself, and have confidence that you can do anything you put your mind to. QuizGalaxy.com
Positive Traits:
organized, perceptive, disciplined, balanced, just
Negative Traits:
obsessive, compulsive, tyrannical, demanding, non-communicative

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You will go to jail for:
Starting your own cult which worships beanie babies

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Night Elf Hunter


Night Elves are the sexiest of the bunch. They're the hot flower children of Warcraft: at one with nature, and dancing all the while.

As a hunter, you prefer to be on the sidelines. You would rather see all angles of a situation - probably to find the best position to shoot from. You like animals, but mostly because they (might) do your bidding.

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Deus Maxwell Pills:

Will cause a decrease in homicidal rage

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Deus Maxwell's Past Lives

1185 BC: Warrior
205 AD: A fish gutter
1626 AD: Royalty
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Deus Maxwell lost a bet to Satan forever dooming humanity.
... afterward, Deus Maxwell became an ideal and disappeared.
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Your arch-nemesis is:
Captain Kirk

Because they left their gum on your bed post
The winner will be...
You will join forces to conquer good
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Jan. 16th, 2008


Lyrics ("Disappoint" by Assemblage 23)

Disappoint Lyrics
Artist(Band):Assemblage 23
Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?

Just one more time
For the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace

Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none

Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise

Though you are gone
I am still your son
And Though your pain is over
Mine has just begun

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

((I Love this song...))

Jan. 15th, 2008


My LJ Stalker

deus_maxwell's LJ stalker is sad_school_girl!
sad_school_girl is stalking you because they think you are the one who made anonymous abusive LJ comments. They are also not very liked around here!

LiveJournal Username:

LJ Stalker Finder
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Why, Ash-chan, you tease, you!

Dec. 17th, 2007


Thou shalt be sorely missed...

Jessi had to be put to sleep. He condition was much worse than originally anticipated. Ma and Papa laid her to rest right next to the Woofer-mutt by the barn in the backyard. He carved the following on her home-made "casket": "Jessica; A damn good cat and a Hell of a mouser" - fitting, ne?
... I'm gonna miss my baby...

Nov. 11th, 2007


I took it twice...

What Flavour Are You? I taste of Death.I taste of Death.

Doesn't everyone want a taste of death? Well they should. Most people deserve death. Keep away from me unless you think you're better than that. I probably won't like you. What Flavour Are You?

What Flavour Are You? I taste like Nuclear Waste. Delicious.I taste like Nuclear Waste. Delicious.

Tasting like nuclear waste is a good thing - nothing bites me, nothing eats me, few things even touch me. I appreciate the solitude my harsh exterior brings. What Flavour Are You?

Oct. 8th, 2007


... sad...

Mommy and Daddy and Pauline went home today... *sniff, sniffle*

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